Focusing On The Past

Today I used my flash drive after not using for the longest time now. After browsing through it for a little while I found a label called, "new folder." I first thought that I should delete it because I did not think it had anything in it. But to my shock, there were a bunch of pictures. These pictures consist of me before I had a kid and before I married my husband. It brought tears to my eyes. Tears of happiness and guilty sadness. Sadness because life back then I did not think of the load I think of now. I was immature and irresponsible which I do sometimes miss because I am just so young. My life took a full 360 and I had a different plan for myself whenever I finished high school. Happiness because I am happy with my life now and God had brought so much to me now that I am so grateful for.

I found pictures of the day my husband and I first met. If you had read my post about meeting my husband than you will know that I met him on online. We met two weeks later in person on Christmas day. My father picked him up and brought him home to spend the holidays with us. I found the pictures of us whenever we met. I think back to that day. The feelings, the shyness and excitement. Now it's been two years and those feelings don't exist. They do but in a totally different way. Now it is strong love and there is no shyness about it. It just brought back a lot because I can picture the way I felt that day, my thoughts and the fact that we only saw each other if we were lucky once a week. I will post the pictures, but you can not laugh. I had a popsicle before I took these so I look a little hideous in them. I look like a four year old who got into their moms red lipstick. Mind you, I was very immature back then and going into that "teenage" phase.

I look horrible and you are probably thinking why didn't that guy run away whenever he saw her for the first time. I know "Heather that is not a good first impression on your part." He thought I was beautiful though. My hello kitty pajamas and all. In fact, he had bought me hello kitty earrings for the christmas present. So yes, he did love me. He still does too! He was a little chubby back then too. 

Consider those the before pictures of myself. Now for the after pictures. After I had a kid. After I got married. Such a dramatic transformation in my maturity and looks. Of course physically as well. Whenever Dorrian was a newborn and I was a mother. 

All of this in a year. Everything happened so fast that I did not even have the time to sit and think about it all until now. These pictures reflect on what that whole year brought and how it changed me. This is a story. A story that I lived and experienced. A story that changed me and matured me in ways I don't think anything else can. But life now is beautiful. I grew up depressed, suicidal and had problems mentally. I was almost put into a behavioral health clinic because of my problems. Now look at me I am a mature grown woman with the responsibility of being a mother and wife. I am the best mother and wife there is too. I was made by God to take on these titles. Thank you God, thank you for everything. Thank you readers for taking the time to read this post. Share and enjoy! Please. 

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