I like to think of this blog as a journal. A journal where I can write openly as almost as if it were private. So in that case I am going to write about my thoughts, feelings and my opinions. Here we go. Life as we know it changes every minute. No matter what it is, it changes. The thoughts in our head, our ideas and if you think about it our age. I am the "every minute is closer to death" kind of girls. But I still (sometimes) see the glass half full. I look back at my life for the past two years and I just can not believe what has happened and what has changed. Two years ago I was in high school. I had NO responsibilities and basically I had nothing. But to be honest, I was miserable. I had some issues whenever I was a teenager. I went though a severe streak of depression and everything in that category for five years. I can honestly say I came through a lot whenever I met my husband. I remember a little after meeting him, I switched to an alternative school so that I could finish high school faster. I had planned that after I finished I would move in with him. Which happened, but not the way I planned. Two months later I got pregnant and here I am. A mother, a wife and a student. Two years I did not think I would be here. I thought maybe I would be still living with my parents and honestly had no idea about college. So as I said before life changes every minute.
Not only do things change in that aspect but also physically. My secret is that I suffered from insecurity and honestly I still do. Especially after having my son. I may sound like a 16 year old teenager but I am going through this phase of my weight. Where I look at myself in the mirror and the first thing that pops in my head is the fact I need to lose weight. I just do not know how. I do not half the self-motivation of working out and trying to get on a diet. I just wish I had the body I had before I had my son. I may be a grown woman now but I still wish I looked good. It's pathetic really. I have/had to live with these voices in my head telling me these negative things about myself that my heart doesn't believe but my brain fools me into thinking it is true. Weird really. If anyone knows any ideas about how I can lose this pudge on my stomach and stretch marks please let me know. I know I can't be the only woman going through this. I just need some help and ideas I guess. Hahah.
This post was a little deep. I just could not think of anything else to post about. I have been very busy with school and my son has just been so much lately. Plus our dog has been peeing and everything else around the house, I am just losing my mind.
Thank you readers for reading.
Toodles. (:
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