Recently Enjoyed Moments and update

Well as you have noticed the blog has changed a little bit. I am so weird, I swear I have an OCD problem when it comes to wanting to change things and not wanting to be happy with one thing for awhile. It is a nasty ol' habit having to change things to where I am comfortable with it. I would be happy with it one minute then I will sleep on it and go to look at it with fresh eyes and think to myself, "What the heck was I thinking?" Yeah it is pretty bizzare. But hey, we all have our weird flaws. I have got the apartment sorta kinda done. I have been working my butt off man. I swear I have lost some pounds moving everything everywhere, but you can't tell. Anyways, I am very happy with the way it turned out. Even though I don't have an immaculate house/apartment like the rest of the mommies that blog, I have one that I love. One that is amazing for now for when we are just starting off as a family once again. Let me tell you, I love being a family finally. I can finally clean, cook, and raise my son the way I want to raise him without being judged. I would cry almost everyday living with my parents, because it was just stress beyond belief. My marriage was wrecking because the stress from living there was just making us fight. Now with my husband working his confidence is up. I think every man should have a job, it's a true hit to a man's pride when they don't have a paycheck. Trust me, I witnessed front row. My husband was able to get us our own apartment, and was able to move us a month before we planned to. For that he deserves a pat on the back. Because I honestly could not be any happier. I felt as though I was locked up in a cage and the key was missing. My parents and I just do not get along. We never have and we more than likely never will. Living in this little apartment will allow us to find an amazing church to plug ourselves into. Something pretty neat happened just the other day, a church comes out every Saturday and tries to get more people for their church. We met the pastor and he seemed very young and amazing. This Sunday we are actually going to try it. I am too excited. I feel like I am nesting. Oh gosh, am I pregnant? No, I wish. Ooops. It slipped. My big secret. I do wish I was pregnant. I miss the feeling of being pregnant, is that weird? No, I want a little girl. So so so so bad. But right now, I am trying to get schooling done. I am going to get my RN degree THEN settle down and try for a girl. Shh. My husband just doesn't know that yet. Here is the finished apartment.

This top picture. Those two chairs make up our couch for the moment. Our last couch we actually left because a friend of my husbands lend it to us. I hated that couch so it was not much loss. We have been couch shopping for a few days now. So one couch will be coming our way in just a couple months!

Isn't is awesome? My son's room turned out to be so amazing. He doesn't play in it though. When we moved here, I thought he would love to play in his room. But it seems like he only goes in there if I am in there. Any other time I am not, he is clinged right by my side. We bought a gate to put in the doorway for his room but whenever I put him in there he will just throw a fit. He does this cry that sounds as though he is being tortured. I don't understand it. I thought any little kid would love to have their own room. He has so many toys it is just crazy. We actually had to leave some behind because of how many he has. But he doesn't seem to even care. He would rather play with the books on our shelf then play with a toy that cost 50 bucks and lights up. Hmmmm. Sometimes I will just never understand my son. He is just so weird.

Speaking of him being so goofy. He is sprouting such an adorable personality. I love how goofy he is. He is like a little mini me. I just love him. I would never regret having him, because he makes me feel this happiness I didn't think was possible. I never understood the bond between a mother and her kid. But now I do. Now I understand it, better than anything else. It is magic. From the second you find out you are pregnant to the second you are telling them no. It is love. I don't understand how a parent can hurt their own kid. I read stories on the news about parents hurting their children constantly. It literally breaks my heart. I would sit and cry and ask God why it happens, but it does. I love my son and if anything ever tried to hurt him, I think I would have to hurt that person. Truly. 

I certainly recommend having a child though. Because it is an amazing miracle. 

 This picture was painted by my husbands sister. She painted it as soon as she found out I was pregnant. Isn't it just the cutest thing ever? I am obsessed with it. My son loved it whenever he was a newborn. 

 I hung these by myself. I am quite proud of it. The same sister that painted the picture above made these letters too. The cow picture was a gift given to me from my husband whenever we first met. I loved cows. I actually had an obsession with them. 

This is just a few things that I kept that meant a lot to me. My sons first valentines card to a letter from my mother in law. Just cute things that represent Dorrian. 

Anyways, I know I have been so busy and my posting has just been lagging with me. I promise I will make more time to blog. My classes start Tuesday. I am taking an A&P class, which is apparently supposed to be a very difficult class. I am also taking a speech class online. YES! Online.. Thank god. I have literally tried to avoid Speech for so long. Now I can do it online, I am so relieved. Because I do not do well in front of people. I turn as red as a tomato. Literally. I hate it. So liiiife saver.

I have added a new advertising perk to my blog now. Even though I am still in the middle of trying to build my blog, I figured I could get bigger by advertising. So if you interested email me, use my email link at the top right. I will even trade if you would like. 

Thank you readers, for helping me get to where I am at now with my blog. Please share and tell people to read my blog. I would just love it. Because I enjoy blogging so much. It helps my confidence in myself so much. So just thank you and please help!

Well, I am just finishing my book "New Moon" yes I am a twilight fan. A huge one at that. The movies have been playing in the background every day for the last week. I am just a little obsessed. My husband will be home soon, so I have to get up and make him grilled cheese. Oh men they are just so needy. Just kidding. I enjoy doing things for him because he has done so much for us. Well enjoy your nights readers!

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