Long time, No see

Hi there guys -- It has been so long since I have blogged or done anything related to associating with the outside world besides facebook. A LOT has changed and I feel like I say that every time I fall off the wagon and get back on with this. For starters, I moved to Nevada. Yes, Nevada. A very small rural town in Nevada that is three hours away from every town north, south, east and west from it. So you can say I feel a little trapped so to speak. We moved here in April for a job opportunity for my husband. It was well worth it but I do miss Texas. I just don't feel home. Every single time I think about it, the Sandy song from SpongeBob comes to mind. "Wish I was back in Texas, I want to go hooo-oo-me?" Eh.. That was a little embarrassing. Anywho, I miss my family. It just feels so unnatural to me to be so far away. I am not driving distance or even road trip distance. At least not with two kids. I am 22 hours away from the only home I ever known. We left a house that was literally around the corner from my parents house and I would be lying if I said I don't miss it. Because I do every single day. But this was a good decision for my family. A pay raise and a promotion for us. Financial stability is so important whenever you are raising kids, especially in this economy. Besides, next summer we are looking into buying in Utah -- Salt lake city to be exact. So I am excited for that and although I hate it here in Nevada at least I have that to look forward to.

Anyways, on to the kids update. Dorrian is growing like a weed. He will be four in November. In three short months, I will be the mother of a four year old. I still can't grasp that. Everytime I think about it, this one memory comes to mind. I have no idea why either, because it was just an ordinary night. He was a swaddled little newborn. I was getting him back to sleep and I had the little blue lamp on, on his end table next to my rocking chair. I was looking at him, how long he was, how he fit into my arms so perfectly thinking how one day he won't. I starting singing you are my sunshine as he drifted back to sleep. I still till this day think of that memory, why? I have no idea. Because it was just a sleepless night for me.

Now for Zooey -- She is almost sixteen months old! We are just now winging her from breastfeeding. So far she is doing awesome! My goal was a year but winging is just harder than it sounds, which I did not know until it was time to do so. Especially for her because she was just obsessed with it. But I chose to wean because it consumed my life. I wasn't able to hardly do anything without her wanting to nurse every minute. Any time I laid down, it was like she sensed it and would come use me a buffet. It was hurting my mental state so I made the responsible decision in order to be a better mother for her. She is walking, talking and is such a little spoiled diva. Her daddy spoils her rotten! She says mama, dada, papa, nana, bubba, baby, bye bye, hi, uh oh, no, doggy, etc. She is such a sweet little girl and I am just so proud to be her mama!

I just wanted to update you guys and I hope to get back into this and become better at it! I like to think of this as a journal for me. Somewhere I can come write my feelings and share them with you guys. Whether you care or not, haha. But I hope to get more categories out there!


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, Name change... again. I had an uncle who would always call me his freckled fox. So I just went with it. It is catchy and cute and explains me. Hopefully it sticks!