Whenever Life Gives You A Big Bowl Of Everything....

For the past week I have been doing nothing with my time but stalking craigslist and zillow. Why you might ask? Well because my husband and I are fed up with living in these apartments and I just had my fingers crossed that we may find a house in our price range. So to know a few days ago that there are no houses in our price range because Sherman, Texas has very rarely any houses at all to rent was quite disappointing. It saddens me to know how much my husband and I contribute it seems as though it is never enough. We try to find a house for rent that is as maximum 800 a month but the only ones available are either very ran down or shared. Which I know I can't bite off the finger that feeds me, but I just do not get it. My husband works so hard for our money and we barely have anything to show for it. Yes we do have a roof over our head and food on our table but the fact is this economy just quite frankly -- sucks. I just want to settle down in a home and start enjoying the outdoors without having to worry about people walking around my son and I. We live above a drunk that every night just yells and makes so much commotion. I just can not stand apartments. I do not recommend them to anyone. I just pray that my husband and I will both be on the road to our careers and we will not have to look back and check our bank accounts before we go run to wal-mart or stress because we bought two extra of something. No we are not financially struggling whatsoever. But I do wish that all our hard work paid off a little more to what it should. We are a very respectful family. A family that does not belong to live above a drunk man that yells are his little girls all day. Or a family that lives next to parents that allow their two year daughter to run outside naked unsupervised. I just pray and I know if it is meant to happen it will.

I have recently applied for a corrections officer job at two different counties and both of them wanted to set up an interview. But sadly, I have to be twenty one in order to take the job. Which I will be here in about three months. Most people can not wait to be twenty one so that can start hanging out at the bars but with me I can not wait to be twenty one so that I can get a decent job and follow my career. These next three months are going to go by very very very slowly.

He enjoys creeping on the little girls that play outside our window. 

  I swear I just love watching his face as he watches TV. He gets so involved in whatever it is and it just makes me happy how it can entertain his little mind.

 His cute chubby short legs as he maneuvers the blinds to where they sit behind him as he watches the kids outside.

By the way, I deleted my facebook page because I just do not like facebook whatsoever. It did not get me anywhere but I am sure once my blog builds a little more I will go back to using it. Until then I am just going to mainly stick with topbabyblogs and maybe whatever else that interests me.

I am planning on doing a major makeover for the blog real soon. Whenever I can find the time and energy that is. I just get real lazy lately. No idea where it is coming from but it better leave soon. So stay tuned and let me get these little fingers to (try) to do some magic. By magic I mean trying to convince my husband to design my banner because I oh so suck at it. He took graphic design in college. You see his perceptible charm is not the only reason I married him. He has many (oh so many) amenities about himself. But seriously it will be magic to convince him to do it for me. So I think as "wish you luck" is in order.

Anyways, Enjoy this post but I mean if you are reading this right now then I assume you enjoyed it enough to continue reading to this point. The proper ending to this would be I hope you enjoyed it. There. Better. Share among who ever and please vote for me on topbabyblogs and mammahotspot. Thank you very much everyone.

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Weekly Wednesday

Although I am a day late for this.. no one will notice. At least I hope not. Wait.. I just pointed it out. Well crap, oh well. No one cares, right?

Today was a beautiful day. It started off pretty gross though -- rainy and windy. Winter has been sticking his unwanted head in lately, so this one nice weather day I was going to take complete advantage of. I went fishing... Well tried. Because of this draught and crap weather; the lake is completely dried up. I mean literally. There was NO water. It just broke my heart because of how sad it all looked. But we did find a little water. Although we had no luck, the fact that we tried was pretty exciting and fun!

See... I told you there was no water. Last time we were up here about 6 months ago the water came all the up to where those dried up bushes are at the bottom of the picture. Look at it all, everything dried up. Isn't it just heart breaking? Please Winter... Allow Spring to do it's job. Rain, rain and storm. 

I got a job at Target. My very first job. I know what you are thinking... "What? You have never had a job?! How old are you?!" I am 20 and to be quite frank I have never really tried getting a job. But now I have one and am quite happy. It truly does help my confidence knowing I am supporting my family financially. I am trying to get on with our county jail here as a correctional officer. They are so interested but I just need my license. Which I will be getting at the end of April. Yes. :)

Everything that is green and brown in this photo used to be lake. Nothing by water.. :(

We are going house hunting here in the next couple months. I am so very excited. My own little house... ah I just tingle over the thought of it. I can garden. Paint the walls the way I want. Not hear people outside my window all the time. Loud noises. Just peace... I can not wait!

This is my day wrapped up in pictures. I just love pictures. I really love my iPhone. It takes the best photos. 

I hope you enjoyed this little photobook. Please share and vote for me on topbabyblogs and mommyhotspot over on the top right of my page. Thank you very much. 

Toodles, have a blessed day/night. 

Lifestyle Changes + Diet Journal

Tomorrow I am marking my weight loss journey. After having my son, I have been very insecure with my body. Before I was pregnant, I had a very fast metabolism. I could consume almost anything and not look like I had gained a pound. Now anything I eat, I wear it. Now mind you I have never in my life had a problem with my weight. Actually I had never cared about my body. Now it is like anytime I see a skinny in shape woman, I cringe out of envy. I want to get in shape and possibly look the way I did before my pregnancy. A woman needs to feel good about herself, the confidence in herself comes from self. Which is my goal. To lose the weight and eat healthier. I have considered becoming a vegetarian but I just love meat too much. I have no real reason to become a vegetarian besides the fact that I want to lose weight. But that is not going to keep me from my temptation of devouring a steak when I want to. Most vegetarians you meet are vegetarians you meet are that way because they do not believe in eating animals. Which is what helps them stay away from meat. 

My new lifestyle is going to be basically no carbs. For at least 5 months I am going to keep away from carbs. Meaning no fries, pasta, rice, bread etc. I know you need carbs to function, which there are plenty of foods that have low carbs that are healthy. I am going to be more of a vegetable and fruit eater. Salads are becoming my new best friend. Water will become my life. So here we go. Starting on 3/16/14 I will be turning over a new lifestyle. I have told myself this too many times and not follow through on it, but this time I mean it.

I will also be keeping a diet journal. Every now and then or maybe everyday depending on if I enjoy it, I will be putting everything I eat and exercises on here. Tracking my progress and keeping myself motivated. Who knows maybe someone who reads them will be motivated to join the journey and I can help them. You just never know -- but that would be quite great. 

I wear a size 10 in jeans when two years ago I wore a size 4. I just can not believe the weight I have gained and just not really see it until now. I just hate looking at myself in the mirror and feeling as though I am not happy with my body. Every time I am out in public, especially in a restaurant I feel like people are looking at me thinking "Wow, she doesn't need to be in here." I know I sound like a insecure teenager, but I just can not help it. 

A new me I can not wait to embrace. Here we go. Five months sampler and if all goes well, I may just make forever. We will just see. 

Before you say it, "You do not need to lose weight!" Clothes hide a lot. I would post picture of my stomach flap and what not, but it is shameful. I do not even change in front of my own husband because it is just far too embarrassing. I consider this a change for myself, a change that I will finally accept myself and be healthy and happy. I will keep you all updated on my journey in a new tab!  So follow along and try it as well if you would like to. 

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(: Toodles.

Catch Up and Favorites.

Here I am trying to conjure up how I am going to start this post. But my mind is just... empty. I would blame it on writers block but I have not posted anything in weeks now. I would say it it because I have been so busy, which is partially true. I have been sick, tired and just some what lazy to pick up my laptop and post this. My son keeps me on my feet and I have been in the process of trying to teach him words. All he says and continues to say after my repetitive word babbling at everything he points at.. is "da-da." But I know that babies just develop differently. So I am waiting on the day for him to come up to me and tell me "mommy I love you." Because I know that day will melt my heart.

The fact that he mocks every face I make with him. The fact that he has those lovely roles that merge with his wrists. I love my chubby monkey.

Those beautiful blue eyes that I swear everyone in public awes at.

My husband hates this picture. He hates it because I love it. I set it up at a decoration and he just can not stand it. He was chubby and cute. I don't know what happened since then though...

He is about a goofy as anything.

My addiction are these sunflower seeds. I eat them about everyday whenever I am doing something relaxing. Like now... You bet, I am smacking on them as I type this.

My son lives and breathes me everyday. I had to watch my brothers kids today. But I loved seeing Dorrian interacting with other little kids. 

My two favorite boys in the whole entire world. I love these boys and would do anything in my power for each of them.

My husband and I bought a 3D t.v. yesterday. I have been wanting to watch the movie Gravity since I saw the previews of it months ago. Everyone that is reading this right now... you need to see that movie. Especially in 3D, it is absolutely amazing. It is by far my favorite movie of all time. I can watch it over and over. It made me tear up, jump and just on edge all in one movie. The story is just so deep that there are little things to catch on to as to why it has the title "Gravity." So please watch it, I beg.

I will try to keep updated more often. Just bare with me. So much is going on. Just pray for us and know that I love the fact that you take the time to read my blog!

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